No. Not again. Why does this always have to come out of nowhere. It’s really hot in here. I can’t catch my breath. Why can’t I catch my breath? My hands are shaking. My heart’s definitely going too fast. My pulse is definitely too high. I wish someone was here… No, they’ll think I’m crazy. Yeah, probably. It’s cold. Why do I feel so heavy on the chest. What were the symptoms of a heart attack again? Chest pain. Numb arms. Yeah that’s it. Definitely having a heart attack. Why are my muscles so tight? Where did my legs go? I can’t feel my legs. This is so weird. Just feels like I’m on the other side of the room, looking at myself. Unreal. Completely unreal. I really don’t feel well. I think I’m gonna be sick. I wonder if these will help. This will calm me down. This is not a good idea. Shouldn’t be smoking. I’ll take some more. Just in case. Did I overdose? Probably overdosed. Why is everything so loud? My heads going to explode. Am I going crazy. Probably going crazy. What if I lose control and do something stupid? I don’t want to lose control. I hope no one sees me like this. I really don’t feel well. I think I’m dying. Am I dying? Breathe. Wait. I know this. This is a panic attack. My brain just messed things up and triggered fight-or-flight at the wrong place and the wrong time. ok-ok-ok. I’m just going to lie on the couch, clinching my fists and it’ll pass. Always does. Nothing bad ever happens. Just breath. Relax. Calm down. I really wish someone was here. Do I? No. They wouldn’t understand. How would I even explain this. This has no particular reason. This is stupid. I’m so tired. I don’t want anybody to see me like this. What if I get a panic attack in public. Everybody will be looking. No no no… Yeah I’ll stay. It’s safe now. It’s safe.